It’s not you…

…it’s me.

No, really, it is.

(No, I’m not breaking up with my husband.)

I might be taking a break from Weight Watchers.

Here’s the scoop.  I know Weight Watchers works.  I truly and thoroughly believe that.

However, it only works if you work the program.

I am currently not working the program.

At all.

And to that end, I’m gaining weight and paying $40 a month to do so.

In this economy, that’s not such a great idea.

Do I want to lose the weight?  Yes.  Have I lost the weight before?  Yes.  Can I justify what I’m doing right now?  Not really.

I have the factors going on at my WW meeting that help you be successful: I like my leader (and she’s good), and I like most of the people in the meeting (and have made some friends.)  I won’t say that I like all the receptionists, because frankly there is one that I find to be a bit of a pain in the ass (I seriously don’t think that woman is ever happy…either that or she’s happy to be complaining about things, and that just annoys me.)

When it comes to weight loss,  you’ll find people who say that they’ve tried this diet, that program, etc and so forth, and nothing’s worked for them, blah, blah, blah.  It’s the same when you find someone who laments about failed relationship after failed relationship…sometimes you need to look at the one common factor in all those relationships (or weight loss trials.)  Yup, that would be you.

Ouch.

I have been a faithful attender of WW meetings for 6 years.   Rarely have I missed a meeting (though I’ve missed the past two…hence my need to blog about it), and I have had a good deal of success.  For the better part of 4 years, I kept over 75 pounds off.  That’s a lot.  That’s a 5th grader.  Heck, at one point I was at 95 lbs down.  I felt good, I looked better.  Now, well, I’m not 75 lbs down any more.  I’m close, but not there.

Let me reiterate…the WW program is great.  The changes they’ve made recently make it even better than it has been.  But, if I’m not working the program, I’m not going to be successful.

Here’s the crux of the problem.  I don’t know WHY I’m not working the program.  Even with whatever budgetary constraints we may or may not have, there is no reason for me to resort to the horrendous habits I had before WW (which I have done in a number of cases.)  Add on top of that my sporadic exercise regime, and I’ve got a recipe of a severe spiral into the depths of fat-dom.

I wonder if removing the stress of knowing that I’m (well, hubs is) paying for something that I’m not following through on will give me a mental kick.  I know it sounds counter-intuitive, but sometimes reverse psychology works.

Maybe?

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About maggyruth

Mid-thirties, Mid-Atlantic transplant. Fiber-artist, hidden poet, health educator, student. Still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. I swear sometimes. Especially when I'm mad. Deal with it. View all posts by maggyruth

2 responses to “It’s not you…

  • Sarah

    You were starting to inspire me again to start. Maybe we can find a way to do something together, even from a distance. I have really been contemplating going back now that they have the new program. Or maybe we try something different.

  • MaryJo

    I met a lovely lady while waiting at the Dental Institute. Both of us are plump with me being the plumper. She said something to me that has helped me take 10 pounds off my bod. Learn to love yourself. We are talking truly love. Hubby already loves you, parents are in awe of you and are popping their buttons and friends think you are a total star. So yes you are worth the effort. Make that mental click with yourself. You deserve only the best!!!

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